mental note: amuse self

theresa manzanares

this is dunkel, officially, but in my head he is bucko: “listen, BUCKO, you’re gonna knock that over;”  ”ok, BUCKO, my leg is NOT a tree!”  when he wasn’t being the most anarchistic and stubborn little beast i ever met, he was the most loving, most attentive, most idiosyncratically charming feline to walk the planet.  
he was mine for four days until a severe allergy forced me to return him.  i wept as i handed him over.  i wept in short bursts for a week.  i got choked up when i scanned this picture.
i sometimes joke that i will become a crazy cat lady when i’m old.  but i know it isn’t true.  i don’t even understand people who fill a house with cats.  as much as i love them, i have only truly bonded with three in my lifetime.  one was a farmcat i had as a teenager for about 2 years who was somehow poisoned.  the second was the cat i spent my entire adult life with; he traveled across the us and back with me.  the third was dunkel/bucko, with whom i shared only four beautifully turbulent days.  i miss him.

this is dunkel, officially, but in my head he is bucko: “listen, BUCKO, you’re gonna knock that over;”  ”ok, BUCKO, my leg is NOT a tree!”  when he wasn’t being the most anarchistic and stubborn little beast i ever met, he was the most loving, most attentive, most idiosyncratically charming feline to walk the planet.  

he was mine for four days until a severe allergy forced me to return him.  i wept as i handed him over.  i wept in short bursts for a week.  i got choked up when i scanned this picture.

i sometimes joke that i will become a crazy cat lady when i’m old.  but i know it isn’t true.  i don’t even understand people who fill a house with cats.  as much as i love them, i have only truly bonded with three in my lifetime.  one was a farmcat i had as a teenager for about 2 years who was somehow poisoned.  the second was the cat i spent my entire adult life with; he traveled across the us and back with me.  the third was dunkel/bucko, with whom i shared only four beautifully turbulent days.  i miss him.

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